cheated hearts

i want these i want these i want these. more than anything i want these. they would go great with the birfday dress i picked out earlier this week. and i know i could rock these.i'll be 5'10 with them on too!! 

i hope i can walk with them better than meg white in that blue orchid video a couple years back...

errrybody talkin bout the good ol' days

whatever happened to waking up next to each other in the early morning,

starting pillow fights?

we used to get so angry--

it'd always end in kick boxing and bruises.

He said:

just "a year ago you guys were getting drunk everyday and acting stupid", 

but g. is right-- we have blossomed.

only a year ago we had the world in front us, 

chasing whoever it was 

or whatever it was that our little hearts desired.

i cant help but think some have grown grey and cold.

but i catch myself, remembering that were all getting older

and twenty one aiight even that old.

well, we'll see better days.

\\ the sickness

Japanther
NinjaSonik
Underground Railroad to Candyland
Seasick (Oakland)

April 17th @ SyncSpace
4306 Melrose Ave. Los Angeles, CA.
(Melrose & Heliotrope) 
$5 / 9:00pm / All Ages

this weekend you can quite possibly find me here:

ABE VIGODA. GLOBES ON REMOTE. ALLAH LAS. BLUE JUNGLE. COBALT CRANES. BASTIDAS. HAUNTED TIGER. WONDER WHEEL. PULSE OUT. LOYAL SONS AND DAUGHTER

oh, and here:

yesterday...

was pretty sucky. i cant figure out for the life of me, why people say one thing but really are thinking or doing another. it'd help everybody out so much more if you just said and did what you felt so we all could  go on with our lives. i miss you shakey bones; this could have easily been your home. but hey, it was fun while it lasted.

cant i...

go to a show this weekend?!--

One where everyone doesnt know my name, cuz i always find that a bit weird.

Its always weird when people know you before you even notice them.

It makes me wonder if my life is really that significant when my only goal is to live for myself and continue to do what makes me happy.

los angeles is absurd.

and this is how i feel

>>>

okay

im gonna need a saw, a drill, 3 9x10 planks of wood,  a 12 x 15 sheet of plexiglass, and lots of paint because for now, im afraid to pick up my pencil and sketch again.